This week’s recipe is a cheat, or more honestly, a repeat. I did not find the time to research a recipe and go to the grocery store between last Wednesday and this one to prepare a new, healthy meal to fuel my runs. As a matter-of-fact the only time I took out of my schedule to eat something different was when I drove through the fast food drive through because I was craving a cheeseburger after spin class Monday night and decided to reward myself for having lost 4 pounds over the past couple of weeks.
To counter that I ate my favorite, easy black bean burritos that I cooked up in ten minutes Tuesday night after hill repeats. This was the recipe I posted a few weeks ago. I really do love them, so much so I planned to take the left overs for lunch on Wednesday.
But I didn’t want to completely short this post. Wednesdays are all about trying to better fuel my body for running. Sometimes I forget I also need to fuel my mind and spirit, especially as I sometimes feel depressed and deflated, or create non-existent competitions with friends I train with in my head because I’m not at the same level of speed and fitness as they are.
Luckily, I actually had a decent set of hill repeats that erased most of the bad feelings about being competitive.
Mostly though, I would attribute most of my bounce back to the following quote from “Beasts of the Southern Wild,” a small independent film I watched the other night. It’s quirky and has some of the best monologues I can remember. The following quote is something I continue to savor, and it reminds me of the connectivity in all I do, especially when my brain wants to run off and hide because I still have trouble figuring all the socialization, wants and needs, and life shit out.
“When it all goes quiet behind my eyes, I see everything that made me lying around in invisible pieces. When I look too hard, it goes away. And when it all goes quiet, I see they are right here. I see that I’m a little piece in a big, big universe. And that makes things right. “